Everyone has his/her own fear.
Weakness couldn't be hidden once people hold the strong one.
I don't want you to turn me,
I don't hope it to be happen,
Don't try to push me,
Don't try to beg my pardon,
No more friendship,
Just leave me alone, Please!
It's become so closed, yes, it was, Trauma.
It was uncomfortable sound stated in my mind, absolutely gone wrong.
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But, why my life full of darkness since I knew someone?
What's wrong with me?
What's gonna happen up-next?
Just always asking why?
Happen or not gonna happen?
Could I escape from the darkness in my life?
I've decided to stop it since year 2012.
Why the shadow couldn't be hidden?
Why the evil keep following on me?
Why? Why? Why?
I've been scared into the death, feeling uncomfortable, full of threatens, and fall asleep too.
Oh My God, Oh My Angel, Am I sick?
I have ever asked myself, should I consult psychologists?
My symptoms always appeared when saw the name.
It was deeply unforgivable and unforgettable for what's he done to me.
He mean to me, always.
I totally have no idea on how to stop it even I've tried out all the ways to stop it to happen.
His bad behavior:
Kept begging me to give him one last chance, no matter how hard it was.
<Happen more than 5 times, Now I am not sure which time he mean the truth one from his mouth>
He just want me to say, YES.
<His thought, though. Not mine>
He kept saying that he will die for it.
<Keep threatening on me, shout at me, make me sick & crazy>
He keep his action to make it successful.
<No matter what's my feeling for, how I've explained many times before, totally run out of ideas on what should I do, keep looking for advises from many friends & my family & sister, no idea at last, tired in explaining why I couldn't accept him & his behavior>
His eyes, his actions, and his track.
<Keep looking & stared at me, ever followed me once to my hostel, luckily settled by one of my best friend with sound recording to make sure his word are works in future & protect me from him,
witness by my best friend with the sound recording with him>
He keep rolling and looking for secrets, violation of human's privacy.
<In year 2013, my sister told me that he took my phone and kept his eyes on my message & photos.
In year 2015, my company trip, he looked at my best friend's phone because he saw a message that was sent by me to my best friend>
He don't like to have regrets, so keep insists that he should have equal chance to fight with others.
<Although I've refused many times, advise him so much, but it seem meaningless as he don't want to accept the truth>
He always said he wrong.
<He always admit the wrong and asked to forgive him. But, actually he don't know what's his wrong for>
More & more bad ones, that I couldn't share here....Too much, couldn't write it in my blog.
Tell me, what can I do?
Tell me, what am I supposed to do?
Tell me, who can help me?
Tell me, god, please, begging on you, could you stop it..........???
